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Life is going and is getting better all the time! Yesterday, I believe I experienced something completely new and challenging. I got to teach the lesson in Relief Society on Henry B. Eying's conference address on "Faith and Keys." Its an amazing talk.

I was scared to teach. I always have been. I guess I feel inadequate to teach others that probably know lots more than me, or because I feel I can't express the magnitude and depth of the talk fully. Any who.... I agreed to do it and made my preperations for the lesson.

FORTY MINUTES! I had never had so much time to teach ever before. I read the talk at least five times a day, read Ephesians and other scriptures, looked at other talks, etc... Because I felt that I needed to be prepared in any way.I finally finished my lesson and as it became night I gathered my thoughts, brushed my teeth, and read my P. Blessing.

I after kneeled in prayer and something happened.... Something wonderful.

I was not suppose to give the lesson that I had prepared. I felt it. I knew it. A line from my blessing stood out and would not leave my mind. I was not supposed to give that lesson I prepared, I was supposed to bear my testimony of things and go into discussion based on where the Spirit lead me. I have to admit that the thought of not going into a lesson with papers for others to read or a written outline of what I was going to say scared me. I had never done anything like this.

I didn't feel stressed though, or that my stomach was all in knots. I just was scared I wouldn't teach the lesson effectively to how the Spirit would want me to.

I woke up yesterday morning and still fighting this knowledge that I had I tried to write an outline. Nothing would come. Okay... I get it. So I got ready and left for Church.

All the while I thought of how missionaries probably do this all the time. They teach and say things that are lead by the Spirit. They might not have an out line but they are prepared. "Open your mouth and words will come."

So I got up and taught the lesson. I rashed yes... :) I cried yes.... But all in all I knew what I was teaching and knew for myself that I was doing what needed to be done.

I could have gone along with the lesson I had prepared but knowing I am not the one really teaching, decided it best to follow.

It's was something new and scary but it was also something wonderful and life changing that I am glad I was given to experience.