Drat.... I thought Tay's video was uploaded. It's ADORABLE! Well Friends... I am off on an adventure. My first days of 2009 will be one I have never experienced. Hopefully if will kick me back into gear. I am heading off to the Holy Land and can't wait to feel what I will feel like there. I have thought of how I could prepare for this awesome experience and really don't know how I would ever fully be able to do that. I go with a camera, journal, scriptures, a good friend and no phone. Happy New Years! I love you.

So this is Christmas

Yes... Anna was my gift, Candle tradition rocked my world, Unplugged a baptismal font on Christmas eve and soooo much more. I made silly little ornaments for my roomies and couldn't go to sleep without watching Taylor singing me this song. Merry Christmas all ya'll. I love you.

snuggle

I just finished watching "the incredible gift"(or something like that) while snuggling with two youngsters who 'couldn't sleep'. I debated on the idea of them getting out of bed to come watch it with me but then thought- "When do I get chances like this?" So once again, I am the favorite auntie Kate.
It was something I will never forget. Taylor falling asleep in a ball on my left, after chowing down some serious grapes, and Faith, getting a sleepy voice, saying "I like this movie... don't you?" over and over again on my right.
I got all emotional after putting them to bed and talking with Jen. I am going to miss these little people being around and available whenever I want to come and see them.
Its hard to think that once I left there... I might possibly never be back. (Wright and Steph are moving the first week of January, I believe.)
You could say it was hard for me not having my family all living in Utah like pre mish. Things change, time rolls and know I am getting a lot out of it... but sometimes I just wish and want em here.
Is that too much to ask?!

 

To me dance is something that is apart of me. Its something I need. Another semester is over and my last dance class/performance has, yet again, ended. I always wonder if that is the last time I will set foot in a dance class or be apart of a team. It would be devastating. I have found that through dance I can truly let it all out... I feel something so wonderful and strange that hasn't been discovered in anything else that I do. Its such a release and comfort. I feel completely myself and so vulnerable... Perhaps I will incorporate it into my career? Maybe I will just be the viewer on the other side? But it needs to be apart of my life.

Financial Reality

I took a plunge. I applied for my first financial aide and it's kinda killing me slowly from the inside out. I begin to wonder about jobs I don't have and the ways in which I will never be able to pay back what is expected of me. I feel panic ebbing. What about in 8 months? Totally depleted of all income and nothing to support the 'family' I had saved up for all those years? Can I do it? Will I get it back? How am I going to contribute? Muscles tensed, headache in the back of my skull... Man oh man
BUT
I am okay

Jingle Bells

Cara and I found jingle bell rings. This is the outcome.